It is interesting how one moment you can be laughing with your best friend on your way to grab food, and the next your life is flashing before your eyes. Not only does it put things into perspective but it changes you to your core; the person you were no longer matters and what you thought you knew turns you really didn't. People who you never thought would be there for you are, new friends show you that they care and you realize that friends you thought were life long...aren't.
How do you maneuver your new way of thinking? How do you cut off friends you thought loved you? I don't know, I am taking everything one day at a time.
All I know is that it is hard and though my feelings are running high, I am trying my very best. Trying to be a better person, to be better for myself but most of all to just be.
Everything is very overwhelming, I struggle to control my emotions but love, love is definitely what is keeping me going. The love of my family, the love of my true friends.
Here's to a new chapter.
